She always thought I was too gay to be straight... she saw in me a man in touch with his feminine side, and always seem to appreciate and identify with a woman's side of things, what she fails to realize or may have failed to realize is, I have seven sisters; not the borough in London! my siblings, anyways, I grew up around an environment filled with estrogen and driven by it, naked at first and and as we grew up half naked, till they realized oops! he's a man, I ceased being their brother, and they started fully cladding- bitches I thought, but hey! I love them still, and always will.
I sat in on all their gossips, heck ! I even upgraded a school mate to friend status cos he dug my sis; the wanker left her, well , reason you all hate us, so! my sisters and mum prepared me for a life of love with abilities, and attitudes of gratitude, I love women, I crave being around them, they give me a reason to live, a reason for life. I believe where men; at least most men get it wrong is, they are not patient enough, to attune themselves to appreciating the woman's angle of life, we are driven by ego, irrespective of the gender, however the women have to deal with hormonal driven issues as well ( read C.S Lewis ' book, Glands) you will understand better why women are the way they are, and it will help you as a person, deal with or manage issues. So the key words are patience and attention, these two I learnt from my childhood, however traumatic and crazy as teenage was for me, it's taken me a few challenges with relationships to reach back deep to my childhood to remember, and bring to the fore again, my sisters and mum; our relationship, and how they talked about their boyfriends and my dad; the great through the good to the down right nasty sides of men and their relationships.
I love a beautiful woman, I love a woman sure of herself and knowing of what she wants, a woman not so sure but having an idea of what she wants and where she's headed is worth growing with and investing emotions in.
My best friend told me all, we shared her heartaches and menstrual pains, her hot dates and lousy ones, her new bags and Jimmy Choos', and the more time we spent together and, apart the more apparent we were inseparable, oh! who is she you ask,...lemme describe my best friend...
1'75m, a calm spirit, the yin of my yang, subtle, deep beautiful, she reminds me of city of Heidelberg in summer, green lush hills that reminds of God's promises of a life of bounties, river alive and flowing, aglow like gold in sun, she reminds me life is worth living, by the simple things she does with intent, a good listener, a comforter, awesome sense of humor and how to apply it., why would any guy in right mind hurt such a being or say, I want out from a relationship, in the physical she is like Aphrodite...
So, my best friend was talking to me, and I kept saying this is the love of my life, this is whom I wanna be with till forever and eternity, I realized the panic attacks and my anger bouts had been borne of my challenge of how I let her I know I deeply care, and would like to make our relationship more than what it is.. I leaned forward and it was our first kiss, don't ask me what prompted the act..we both got giddy from it...slow... long, I took her lower lip, she has lips on pout eternal, soft not so full but adequate, soft like petals off a rose bud, each kiss held life, and begged for more, breathes deeps and slow I sucked on her lower lip while she massaged my upper one, and we interchanged, we clung to each as life was held, she leaned in, and I held her to the space we created, eyes opened to be sure each isn't in a dream, and as eyes closed they took down with them a deep need, muscles spasms heightening a mutual desire long harbored, her hand cradling the back of my head, while both of mine held her waist, being a head taller; who cares anyways, only made it more intense, eyes aflame as I read her, her rights to silence, in the process I searched her; voice and eyes for doubt of purpose or intent and there was none, and we returned to where we started....
I sat in on all their gossips, heck ! I even upgraded a school mate to friend status cos he dug my sis; the wanker left her, well , reason you all hate us, so! my sisters and mum prepared me for a life of love with abilities, and attitudes of gratitude, I love women, I crave being around them, they give me a reason to live, a reason for life. I believe where men; at least most men get it wrong is, they are not patient enough, to attune themselves to appreciating the woman's angle of life, we are driven by ego, irrespective of the gender, however the women have to deal with hormonal driven issues as well ( read C.S Lewis ' book, Glands) you will understand better why women are the way they are, and it will help you as a person, deal with or manage issues. So the key words are patience and attention, these two I learnt from my childhood, however traumatic and crazy as teenage was for me, it's taken me a few challenges with relationships to reach back deep to my childhood to remember, and bring to the fore again, my sisters and mum; our relationship, and how they talked about their boyfriends and my dad; the great through the good to the down right nasty sides of men and their relationships.
I love a beautiful woman, I love a woman sure of herself and knowing of what she wants, a woman not so sure but having an idea of what she wants and where she's headed is worth growing with and investing emotions in.
My best friend told me all, we shared her heartaches and menstrual pains, her hot dates and lousy ones, her new bags and Jimmy Choos', and the more time we spent together and, apart the more apparent we were inseparable, oh! who is she you ask,...lemme describe my best friend...
1'75m, a calm spirit, the yin of my yang, subtle, deep beautiful, she reminds me of city of Heidelberg in summer, green lush hills that reminds of God's promises of a life of bounties, river alive and flowing, aglow like gold in sun, she reminds me life is worth living, by the simple things she does with intent, a good listener, a comforter, awesome sense of humor and how to apply it., why would any guy in right mind hurt such a being or say, I want out from a relationship, in the physical she is like Aphrodite...
So, my best friend was talking to me, and I kept saying this is the love of my life, this is whom I wanna be with till forever and eternity, I realized the panic attacks and my anger bouts had been borne of my challenge of how I let her I know I deeply care, and would like to make our relationship more than what it is.. I leaned forward and it was our first kiss, don't ask me what prompted the act..we both got giddy from it...slow... long, I took her lower lip, she has lips on pout eternal, soft not so full but adequate, soft like petals off a rose bud, each kiss held life, and begged for more, breathes deeps and slow I sucked on her lower lip while she massaged my upper one, and we interchanged, we clung to each as life was held, she leaned in, and I held her to the space we created, eyes opened to be sure each isn't in a dream, and as eyes closed they took down with them a deep need, muscles spasms heightening a mutual desire long harbored, her hand cradling the back of my head, while both of mine held her waist, being a head taller; who cares anyways, only made it more intense, eyes aflame as I read her, her rights to silence, in the process I searched her; voice and eyes for doubt of purpose or intent and there was none, and we returned to where we started....
hmmmmmm, intense!
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